stress...

post kali ni sumenyer berkenaan stress......

huaarrrggghhhh....i am soooo stresss.... so many things need to be clear in short time..

1st is...

next week have inspection on student file for KLab...have to make sure evrything is up to date..

total number of case in my hand is 27 student...around 24 to 23 student has no OT report at all..thats mean, i have to generate it before 4th of may...and it was really crazy because at the same time, i have 10 pogress report need to submit in one month time...how i wan to do??i cannot generate the report in 1 week time..it is not fair for me also.. because before i came, there is no report for them at all..it doesnt matter for me to generate it, but i really need a time...i dont want to make a lauzy report..it is no fair for the children...

2nd is..

i have to make sure all the filing system is up to date also..i have to print all the weekly report and put it on the file...waaa....it is a lot ok...i need one or 2 days to make sure evrything is clear...

3rd is..

parents workshop...me and my fren have to come out with the outline on what we are going to present on the parents workshop by second weeks of May...huuuuu..feels like want to cry...:(

4th is....

concert..i have to lead the backstage people on the concert..it is not a big problem foe me because the concert will be held on 19 of November...around 5 to 6 month from now..but, the flow and coordination during the concert should be up on this 15th of may...

5th is...

all my thing that i need to do is very2 messy...evry due date was mix together...and i dont really have good time to manage evrything...i am a poor time management people...how?? feels like i cannot take this anymore...how????now... i just want to do what my capability can go through...

i have my own limit..i can not go more than that...i afraid, i will shut down any time..and, on that moment, i will give up with evrything.. i really hope, there is a hope whispers in my heart now saying that, " just do your best..live the rest to ALLAH..."

6th...

him....still thinking of him... dont know until when...n how to forget him.... my feeling still the same...no change at all...i miss him a lot... (T_T)

SeLamAt hAri jAdi.....

5 april 2011...selamat hr jadi awak....yg ke 24....

huhuh..1st time taun ni after 4 taun sy xcol awk kol 12 tgh mlm tok wish besday awk....sy just anta msg je...n 1st time awk lgsng xreply pape bile sy wish besday awk....xper...tak penting pon sume tu kn.......

ntah la..lepas 5 bln berlalu, sy igt sy ckup kuat tok melupka sumenyer...secara luarannyer, org nmpk sy sgt tabah mnhadapi sume ni...org nmpk sy sentiase hepi sbb pada pndgn dorg, sy mampu lupekn awk dlm hidup sy...tp setelah 5 bulan berusaha...nmpknyer sy gagal....

bkn sng kn nk lupekan org yg kite masih syg...spenuh ht plak tuh...yg paling mnyakitkn, bile sy jd terlalu rindu dkt awk...sy bnci dgn perasaan ni...sy xtau knpe...ht yg sy keraskn selama ni, serta merta jd terlalu lmbut bile sy terigt kn awk...sy xsuke...mcm mne sy nk truskn kehidupan sy mcm ni...knpe awk yg pk kn...knpe awk yg sy still syg n rindu...sedangkn da terlalu bnyk bnde tntg awk yg melukakn sy...sy xphm kdaan n..bkn sy xpenah cube tok melupekan awk...da sehabis upaya sy cuba tok melupakn awk....tp smpi skg sy xmpu....

tapi, sy akan terus berusaha...sy perlu berusha...coz, realitinya, sy je yg rse perasaan mcm ni...awk lgsg xrase ape2...kn?

sy rase, lame klmaan, sy mpu lupekn awk spenuhnyer....mpu mngikis siket2 perasaan sy kt awk...

hmmm..sy sntiase doakn yg terbaek untuk awk...kbhagiaan awk..kjayaan awk..wlpon kt mulut ni slalu ckp bkn2, tp kt ht sy, hanya ALLAH yg tau..bertapa pntgnye kgmbiraan dan kbhagiaan awk pada sy...doa sy akn sntiase mngiringi awk...semoga ALLAH sntiasa memberkati hidup awk di dunia dan di akhirat....

i miss u so much... (T_T)