cRusHHH....

Salam...

Lame kot x update blog...hahah...

hmmmm...rase nyer pic kat ats n bawh ni mmg kne ngn diri sendri..hmmm:(

Tu la..pndai2 sgt nk ade crush..skg da jd laen...huuu..:(

Ended~

Finally, after 5 and half years... the decision is made..after too many hurts, too many tears..it is the time for me to accept n to let go.. i will never hate him.. this is what ALLAH plan for both of us.... we met, we be friend, we fight, we cried, we laugh..ALLAH has a reason for what is happening....

Dear Awak...

The decision is made because this is the best for u..

and i know this is also what u really want...

I became ur burden for the past 5 year...and i never realize that..so sorry for it...

I never realize that, evrything that i did, is something that always will make u angry, upset n agitated..if i know, i wont wait until this time... i will go away from your life long time ago...

I never realize that, from all this time, u r not appreciating me at all..

But why i still waiting for u? I dont have the reason but ALLAH does...

Awk...

I will always pray for ur happines... I will always hope that, ALLAH will bless u for each steps u r taken for ur life...

Because, when we love someone, we really want that person to be happy even we are not the part of happiness....

I really hope that, u will have a very great life...great family..great wife and children... because u deserve it...

This is the end.... ALLAH plans is better than my dream.......... i do accept it... Alhamdulillah....

Indah Dewi Pertiwi - Di Atas Satu Cinta -lirik-.flv

For U.....

Lagu 'Di atas satu cinta' actually sy tuju kn utk awk..sy pm n link kn lg ni kt fb awk, n i said that this is not for u n this song u can dedicate to the one u love...but actually..this song is for u... first time sy dgr ms tgk video Farah Lee n Ally Iskandar...trus je sy teringat kt awk...sedih kn? bile la sy nk lupakan awk??bertaun da kn..knape?bknnyer sy xpernah cuba....

kenapa awk cr sy lagi? awk tau x..tiap kali awk call sy..awk da buat sy letak harapan dekat awk...lepas tu awk tgl kn sy mcm tu je..awk akn wat sy sedih..kecewa..n menangis...berkali-kali...

kalau sy xbermakna dlm hidup awk..jgn la cari saye lg... wlpn sy tau..ad sbb nape awk cari sy...

bile sy add awk kt fb..n post thank kt wall awk..then awk delete..mmg sy sentap sgt..betape rendahnye sy di mate awk...tp awk xtau betapa pnting n tggi nye awk diri sy...tp..thanks sbb, at least sy tau n sedar kedudukan sy yg sebenarnyer...

sy tau...awk ad sumone else..byk da hint awk bg kt sy..sy sedar..tp xslh kn sy nk tetap syg dekat awk...sbb sy still x mpu nk terima lelaki laen..n sy xpernah buka ht untuk lelaki laen...bg sy..selagi ht sy dekat awk..xmngkin ad ruang untuk lelaki laen...

Selari dgn ms yg berlalu..dgn usia yg mningkat...pe yg awk miliki, bkn ape yg sy idam kn dri seorang suami..ciri2 yg awk ad xbyk dgn ape yg sy nk...tp sy xtau, kenape sy masih xboleh buang awk dri hidup sy...dr hati sy...

Awak.......

sy syg sgt2 kt awk...sejak perasaan ni muncul...xpernah berubah..walaupon mcm2 yg terjadi...walaupon seribu kelukaan yg awk bg...ht dan perasaan sy xpernah berubah buat awk...

Awak...

Kalau lngsung xd ruang utk sy...pergi la awk...pergi dr hidup sy...bkn sy membenci awk...dan xmngkin sy bnci awk....tp sbb sy syg sgt kt awk....selagi awk ad..selagi tu sy akan terluka..sbb sy xmpu dptkn rse syg dr awk...

Awak..

sy yakin yg sy mampu hidup tanpe awk...

just jgn la muncul lagi....

sy terluka sgt bile awk ad tp awk ignore kt sy...

klu awk nk ignore..awk jgn dtg dah kt sy..

jgn msg sy..jgn col sy...awk akn wt sy sedih sgt...

sbb.... SAYE SYGKN AWK.....T_T

YA ALLAH...

andai dia jodoh ku..permudah kan lah pertemuan kami...

halalkn la perhubugan kami dgn pernikahan...berkati dan bimbing la kami hingga ke syurga...

YA ALLAH...

andai di bukan jodoh ku...

jauhkn la kami...hindari la kami dari melakukan kemungkaran...

temu kn lah kami dengan jodoh yg telah di tetapkan untuk kami...

Hanya pada MU YA ALLAH....

tmpat kami berserah...

.......

i do miss him a lot....

but i know i have to move on.....

move on...no point waiting there....because he will not open the door for me.....

move on....just let go...let him go...

(T_T)

Karut- Karut

Assalammualaikum..

Huu... Lame giler xupdate..byk nk cerite..tp mls sgt nk type..huhhu

Wahh... Selamat Hari Raye.....Raye tau ni x berape nk best..sbb mak xmsk mknnan wajib hr raye..xd ns tomato..xd kuah kacg..xd aym msk merah..huuuu...cedih b

etul..

Tp tu sume sbb kiteorg satu fmly bercuti n balik kg belah abah dkt melaka...wahahaha...

Da lame betul x blk....n mcm2 tragedi jugak yer yg terjadi..huaaa....

Mase on d way nk g keramat...ak drive smpi lar ke sg besi..pastu ms isi mnyk kt shell..abah ak plak drive..mak ak soh sbb die xcaye kt ak..cis..bru semngat nk drve...tension betul bile kupayaan ak di ragui..eceh....hahahha

Smpi melaka aound kol 4..tp sbb jem yg dasyt..kiteorg smpi hotel kol 5...tp...

Mase berenti kt traffic light nk msuk simpng hotel...Cik Lat a.k.a WVF ak telah tercium bontot kete lain...waaa....abah ak tertekan mnyk mse nk berhnti...adeeehhh....

Melihat ak kdaan Cik Lat a.k.a WVF yg penyet sedikit di bhgian bumper bwh mnyebab ht ak meraung...waaaaa.....psti die sakit kn...ak bru byr tok 5 bulan..ad 8 taun 7 bulan lg.....huuuuu...

Tp..abah ak da berjnji yg dia akn mnanggung segala kos perubatan Cik Lat a.k.a WVF bile smpi ke KL nnti..hooraaaay.....tp ak stil sedih..sbb msti wajah dan kehenseman Cik Lat a.k.a WVF ak terjejas slpas kemalangan itu..oohhh Cik Lat a.k.a WVF..ku ttp menyayngi diri mu...hu

khuk....

Ps check in kt hotel..emosi ak still terggu...huuuu...tp lepas tu kiteorg pon beray

e ke rumah cik hanizah...wahh..sedap btul mkn..tmbh2 dgn gelagat adik2 die...skit kepala i melyn..tp mmg heppi lar..lame xjmper han...hohoh..thank you han n family....

Pstu journey kiteorg pon bermula ker umbai...beraye lg..aim ak beraye adalah untuk merase biskut2 raye umh org....hahahah..ssb umh ak xd biskut raye yg pelbagai jenis...hikhikhik...

Pstu around kol 10..kiterog pon blk la ke hotel..sgt letih ok...tp still nk order room servise..hahahah....lapau la..mkn umh han jer..umh laen jus mkn kuih...

Hari raye kedue..pg2 da melantak buffet breakfast..lupe nk gtau yg ak dok k Mahkota Hotel..hotel ni konsep die ala2 apartment...mmg bes la...sng sket kiteorg nk men2 ngn iman sesame..ceh..mcm iman tu sejenis pemainan plak..hahahah..cori ye cayg..iman mmg pemainan umi pon...hahahahahah....

Pas mkn dgn lahapnyer..kiteorg pon membawa iman ker pntai..sbb nk bg die mndi air laut..buat ubat..yg xtahan nyer die leh nangeh..hahahaha..bdan da macho n gagah..las2 cenggeng...kahkahakha..ak sgt suke tgk die nanges..sbb nmpk gg 2 btg die tu...hahahahah

Pastu kiteorg pon berayer la dekat chinchin..kg abah..around kol 6 lebih gak kiteorg bertolak blk ke kl....kali ni ak drive..tp smpi sg besi jer...sbb ak ni mmg2 klu jln2 kt kl mmg fel la..silap2 mne la plak ak bwk kang...so kt sg besi abah ak takeover...hohoho...

Smpi umah dlm kol 11 lebih..hr ke dua taun ak membahagiakn ak..wlu pon ak tau bnde ni jugak mngkin mnjadi kesilapan terbesar ak...tp ak bhgia...yg ni akn citer next entri...nti entri ni jd pnjg sgt plak..hohohoho...ok..see u in next entry...

daaa~

Ramadhan~

Assalamualaikum....

Da setahun berlalu...dan ramadhan menjelma kmbali....^^

Harap2 ramadhan kali ni membawa sinar keinsafan kepada diri ku....

Ramadhan thn ni ak smbut tnpe die...selepas 4 thun....dulu ms bulan ramadhn, aku la

jam loceng die..time sahur mesti ak akn kjut kn die bgn...ak akn col smpi die msg bgtau yg die da bgn....

ak igt lg mse tahun pertama ak smbut ramadhan ngn die..klu ak bgn awl..ak kn kjut die...bile ak terlewat...die akn kjut ak...n yg ak xleh lupe, ad satu hr tu...die kjut ak dgn hntar lagu nur kasih,...

part ni...

"Di tangan-Mu Tuhanku sandar impian

Penentu jodoh pertemuan
Seandai dirinya tercipta untukku
Rela ku menjadi miliknya"

Da 4 thn berlalu.... tapi sume tu x mngkin luput dari ingatan aku....

mungkin satu hr nti ak x akan igt lg...tp ak xtau bile akn tiba wktu tu....(T_T)

Biarla...biarkn semuanye mnjadi kenangan....aku hrp ramadhan kali ni die dpt tmpuhi dgn pnuh kebahagiaan dan kgembiraan....ak xpernah putus mendoakn kebahagiaan die....wlpon ak tringin sgt nk wish kt die..n nk sgt mntk maaf ats segala kesilapan ak...

dlm mse yg sma..ak nk sgt wish all the best kt die pasal his new job..mybe esok die start kje kt kuantan or mybe 15 hb ni...tp mustahil...ak kne kuatkn semangat ak...ak xnk ulang kesilapan yg sama berulang kali....ak hanya mampu mendoakn dari jauh...semoga semua nya selamat untuk die.....

" Ya ALLAH.....

KAU berkati dan lindungi lah dia...

Pemudahkan lah segala urusannya...

Berikan lah die kekuatan dan ketabahan dalam mengharungi hari2 yg dilalui...

Murahkan lah rezekinya...

Panjangkanlah usianya....

Berikan lah die kebahagiaan di dunia da diakhirat...

Temukan la dia dengan jodoh yg bisa membuatkan die bahagia....

Kau jauhkan la dia dan aku jika itu yg terbaek buat kami...

Kau jauhkan la perasaan marah dan bnci di antara kami...

Sessungguhnya ya ALLAH...kebahagiaan dia adalah kebahagiaan ku...

Kau tabahkan lah hati ku dalam mengharungi semua ini....

Dan ak bersyukur kepada MU YA ALLAH...

Kerana di berikan kekuatan untuk ak mngharungi semua ini....

Hanya pada MU tempat ak mngadu dan berserah......

AMIN YA RABBAL A'LAMIN......."

............... (T___T) it was expected....

memang da diduga n dijangka....

tapi ak xpernah pikir akn secepat ini...

sngt pnts...within a few days....die ilang mcm tu je....tnpe kabar berita....

finally i found out the reason.....yes....dont know what should i feel...

SAD? salah sendiri....

KECEWA? da jangka akan terjadi.....

ak pernah lalui semua ni...n ak akn lalui lg dgn pnuh tabah.....

ak pernah hidup tnpa die n ak boleh lakukn lgi...

not a big deal...

for "U"...

Please jgn dtg blk...pergi la buat selama-lamanye....

sy xkn pernah membenci awk.....sbb tu sy hrp awk xkn mncul lg dlm hidup sy...

biarlan sy tenang dlm melayari kehidupan sy....

sy snggup lepaskn awk untuk tgk awk bahagia...

knp awk xboleh buat mcm tuh....

tolong la....jgn kmbli lagi walau ape pon yg terjadi....

even sbagi seorang kwn..sy xnk dlm ht sy terpalit perasaan yg bkn2 dekat awk....

sy merayu....sgt2.....

tp percaya la....sy lngsg x marah n benci kt awk....sbb sy sayang sgt2 kt awk walau beribu kali

sy menafikn perasaan tu.....

Semoga awk bahagia.....(T_T)

" Kan ku abadikan dikau
Sewaktu kenangan yang manis
Yang tak mungkin aku lupa
Untuk selamanya

Kanku coretkan kenanganmu
Dalam sanubariku ini
Agar jadi yang terindah
Di dalam hidupku ini..."

YA ALLAH....

Hanya pada MU aku memohon kekuatan........

EpPi bEsdAy tO mE~~~ 7th June 2011

huhuh...

lewat update...i am now officially turn to 24.....wah...sudah semkin berumur...mknenyer smakin singkat mse utk berada di dunia ni...huhuhhu....msih byk lg bnde yg xtercapai...

alhamdulillah....

masih lagi mmpu mnghirup udara dan bernafas pada usia 24 thn ni....

alhamdulillah jugak sbb ad beberapa perkara yg di impikan dpt di tunaikan pada usia 24 thn..

antaranyer...

1.convocation taun lepas...finally..i got it..setelah 4 thn bertungkus lumus di uitm...bertungkus lumus ker?huhuhuh...

2. dapat kje....alhamdulillah....i am hepy with my job now...i want to move foward one step this year...hope i can achieve it and dpt lakukn semuanyer dgn baek...semoga ALLAH mempermudah segala-galanye....amin...

3. Got new niece- Nur Iman Balqis..huhuh..she called me umi..heheheh...

4. i got my license....yeahhhhh......after tertangguh selama hmpir 2 taun....huhuhuh...

5. i got my cik Lat....huhuh..got my own car...Saga FL cafe latte..no plat- WVF ..... hehehehe

pic kt sblh is my car..huhuhuh...

Thanks Ya ALLAH for evrything....

Bnyk lagi impian yg masih xtertunai n i will try my best untuk tunaikn nyer..pelan2...

Impian setelah berumur 24 thn ni~

~ nk mnjadi lebih matang(setiap tahun impian yg same)

~nk kje kuat2..nk simpan duit...

~nk bwk parents g umrah or haji( I really hope i can achive this one even though my simpanan sgt2 x mncukupi)

~nk cari calon ......huhuhuh....

~nk jadi lebih pnyabar..

~ nk tgk my children in Kits4Kids ad lebih byk improvement coz i love them so much....n i want them to improve n have a better life in future.....

~nk luangkn lebih byk ms tok diri sndiri....n tok fmly...nk bezakn antara ON duty n OFF duty..

~xnk jatuh sakit lg...huuuuu....

~xnk letak pape hrpn kt die lg....(die?die la..huhu...)

~lupe kn die....boleh ker?can try...huhhu...try very2 hard ok..everything takes time...(if Nirah bace...jgn mrh tau..heheheh...)

Hope everything goes well~ InsyaALLAH....

My doa~

YA ALLAH....

KAU permudahkan la segala urusan ku...

KAU berikan la aku kekuatan dan ketabahan hati dlm mengharungi segala ujian dan dugaan MU...

KAU murahkn la rezeki ku...

KAU kurniakn la yg terbaik untuk hidup ku...

KAU temukan la ak dengan jodoh yg terbaek buat ku..

Semoga dia mampu membimbingku arah jalan MU YA ALLAH...

Sesungguhnya KAU la yg MAHA PENYAYANG...

MAHA PENGAMPUN...

MAHA PEMURAH..

MAHA PENGASIH..

Lagi MAHA MENGETAHUI...

AMIN YA RABAL A'LAMIN.......

Letting Go....

letting go....smpi bile agaknyer saat tu akn tibe ek? knpe mcm sush sgt let go segala-galanye tentang die....seriusly, perasaan semakin reda...tp spatutnye da xd lagi sebarang perhubungan ngn die...sepatutnyer da x msg or contact lg...tp...still lg kontek..yg paling bes, sblum nk berenti dr msg tuh, die msti mngeluarkn ayt2 die yg mnyakitkn ht....

xckup2 lg ker? np msti die sntiase nk mnyakitkn ht ak...smpi satu hr nti ak da xd, bru die brhnti kot... sng je nk mntak maaf...da ber tan2 kot kate2 maaf die tu...da bertan2 kot jnji2 yg die buat..

tp sume xboleh pakai..

mmg ak sedih..tp selalunyer sekjap je la..pstu ak akn maafkn die..ak melupakan ape yg die wat..then bg ruang tok die..then die akn buat lg....bnde tu akn berulang n xtau smpi bile...mngkin smpi die kawen kot...

ntah la...tp kjadian hr ni btul2 wt ak hilang sabar kt die...kate2 die seakan2 nk perli ak wlpn hakikatnyer ak tau die xberniat..mngkin da terlalu biase mnyakitkn ht ak, smpi die xperasan pe yg die wt..die bkn kisah pon ak skit ht...dr dulu smpi skg, mmg die xpnh kisah..tp jgn ak bg die skit ht or awek die sakit ht..bkn men mrh lagi...mcm2 die akn ckp kt ak..smpi mati pon ak xkn lupe kate2 yg di pernah ckpkn...

hmm...tp sperti biase..ak da maafkn die...seikhlas ht ak.......... selagi ak mpu memaafkan kslahan die kt ak...ak akn maafkn.......sbb ak pon bkn nyer sempurna....

n ak nk sgt die tau yg....wlpon ak mrh2 die, kbhagiaan die adlh yg smthing yg terbaek utk ak......

stress...

post kali ni sumenyer berkenaan stress......

huaarrrggghhhh....i am soooo stresss.... so many things need to be clear in short time..

1st is...

next week have inspection on student file for KLab...have to make sure evrything is up to date..

total number of case in my hand is 27 student...around 24 to 23 student has no OT report at all..thats mean, i have to generate it before 4th of may...and it was really crazy because at the same time, i have 10 pogress report need to submit in one month time...how i wan to do??i cannot generate the report in 1 week time..it is not fair for me also.. because before i came, there is no report for them at all..it doesnt matter for me to generate it, but i really need a time...i dont want to make a lauzy report..it is no fair for the children...

2nd is..

i have to make sure all the filing system is up to date also..i have to print all the weekly report and put it on the file...waaa....it is a lot ok...i need one or 2 days to make sure evrything is clear...

3rd is..

parents workshop...me and my fren have to come out with the outline on what we are going to present on the parents workshop by second weeks of May...huuuuu..feels like want to cry...:(

4th is....

concert..i have to lead the backstage people on the concert..it is not a big problem foe me because the concert will be held on 19 of November...around 5 to 6 month from now..but, the flow and coordination during the concert should be up on this 15th of may...

5th is...

all my thing that i need to do is very2 messy...evry due date was mix together...and i dont really have good time to manage evrything...i am a poor time management people...how?? feels like i cannot take this anymore...how????now... i just want to do what my capability can go through...

i have my own limit..i can not go more than that...i afraid, i will shut down any time..and, on that moment, i will give up with evrything.. i really hope, there is a hope whispers in my heart now saying that, " just do your best..live the rest to ALLAH..."

6th...

him....still thinking of him... dont know until when...n how to forget him.... my feeling still the same...no change at all...i miss him a lot... (T_T)

SeLamAt hAri jAdi.....

5 april 2011...selamat hr jadi awak....yg ke 24....

huhuh..1st time taun ni after 4 taun sy xcol awk kol 12 tgh mlm tok wish besday awk....sy just anta msg je...n 1st time awk lgsng xreply pape bile sy wish besday awk....xper...tak penting pon sume tu kn.......

ntah la..lepas 5 bln berlalu, sy igt sy ckup kuat tok melupka sumenyer...secara luarannyer, org nmpk sy sgt tabah mnhadapi sume ni...org nmpk sy sentiase hepi sbb pada pndgn dorg, sy mampu lupekn awk dlm hidup sy...tp setelah 5 bulan berusaha...nmpknyer sy gagal....

bkn sng kn nk lupekan org yg kite masih syg...spenuh ht plak tuh...yg paling mnyakitkn, bile sy jd terlalu rindu dkt awk...sy bnci dgn perasaan ni...sy xtau knpe...ht yg sy keraskn selama ni, serta merta jd terlalu lmbut bile sy terigt kn awk...sy xsuke...mcm mne sy nk truskn kehidupan sy mcm ni...knpe awk yg pk kn...knpe awk yg sy still syg n rindu...sedangkn da terlalu bnyk bnde tntg awk yg melukakn sy...sy xphm kdaan n..bkn sy xpenah cube tok melupekan awk...da sehabis upaya sy cuba tok melupakn awk....tp smpi skg sy xmpu....

tapi, sy akan terus berusaha...sy perlu berusha...coz, realitinya, sy je yg rse perasaan mcm ni...awk lgsg xrase ape2...kn?

sy rase, lame klmaan, sy mpu lupekn awk spenuhnyer....mpu mngikis siket2 perasaan sy kt awk...

hmmm..sy sntiase doakn yg terbaek untuk awk...kbhagiaan awk..kjayaan awk..wlpon kt mulut ni slalu ckp bkn2, tp kt ht sy, hanya ALLAH yg tau..bertapa pntgnye kgmbiraan dan kbhagiaan awk pada sy...doa sy akn sntiase mngiringi awk...semoga ALLAH sntiasa memberkati hidup awk di dunia dan di akhirat....

i miss u so much... (T_T)

Forgiveness......

"Jika matamu berat memandangku, ringankanlah kakimu pergi dariku. Jika bibirmu terpaksa senyum padaku, relakanlah mukamu untuk berpaling dariku. Jika susah untuk kau melupakan kesilapanku, senangkanlah lidahmu untuk menghinakanku. Tapi andainya satu hari nanti telingamu mendengar kematianku, ikhlaskanlah dirimu melihat jasadku buat kali terakhir dan bisikan padaku yg kau telah memaafkan diriku, moga kalimah terakhir menjadi bantal dilena yg panjang..."

Maaf andai diri ini pernah telnjur melukakan hati awk....telanjur melakukan sesuatu yg menerbitkan rase marah dalam diri awk......

Segala2nye yg terjadi...sy da maafkn awk...di dunia dan akhirat..xgune untuk trus mnyimpan rase mrh coz semuanya adlah perancangan ALLAH....berdendam dgn ape yg terjadi, seolah2 sy mnyalahkn takdir....

Saya percaya, ad hikmah ats sume yg berlaku.... sy yakin, ada sebab sume ni terjadi antara kite...

Thanks kerana pernah jd insan yg pling rapat dalam hidup saya..atleast kehadiran awk byk mngajar sy erti kehidupan...

Thanks coz sy bukan seperti yg awk knl 4 thun dulu...sy bukan lagi budak pempuan yg manja...yg terlalu memkirkn bnda yg remeh temeh...

Awk mngajar saye erti berdikari...awk ajar sy mnjadi seorg yg kuat..yg matang...yg tahu hala tuju hidup saye..sbb awk jugak la..sy mnjadi diri sy spt hr nie...

InsyaALLAH..sy ckup tabah untuk melalui sume ni..just mngkin sy xckup tabah untuk terusk perhubngn kite wlpon sbgi seorang shbt..bkn niat utk memutuskn silaturrahim antare kite...tak same skli....mngkin sy xckup kuat untuk tau perkmbngn awk...tp percaye la..sy sntiasa mendoakn kebhgiaan awk...

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Mampu ke?

assalamualaikum....

tbe2 skg ni musim rajin nk update blog...huhu..

skg ni tgh membina smngat tok siapkn report2 yg terbengkalai..huhu..bnyk tuh...adehh...mls sngguh rsenyer...

skg ni bnyk sgt tngjwb yg kdg2 ak rse mpu ker ak nk lakukan....contohnye lead KLab sikit demi sedikit...skg ni kerja ak da mula msuk bab mangment...kne lead other ot...bkn satu tugas yg mudah tok ak...ye r..ak pon bru nk msuk 5 bulan kje kt ctuh...xper...ak kne blaja utk build confident ak..insyaALLAH...yakin boleh...

huhu..skg ni fmly ak topik org kawen r..adehh..ni yg lemah ni...huhu..cmne nk kwen klu bf pon xd..huhuhu...mak ak de tye sal si F td...adehh..ak mls nk jwb soklan tuh, trus tuka citer laen..

ak ckp ngn mak ak..ak xredi lg kot nk kawen..ye la..dgn kje yg xmnentu skg ni...klu ad bf, boleh ke bf ak thn..?nti msti xd ms nk dating..kje x mnentu..hr2 pon bz...hmmm..msti bf ak xthn kn...

so, ak bg tmpoh tok diri ak ngn mak ak sekli..

lagi 3 thun..insyaALLAH...so, skg kne stat cri da..hahah..bnyi cm desprate jek...hohoh...

bile pk2 blk, cm mls nk cr2 nie...boleh x nk bia jek dtg..tp, klu xberusaha, cmne nk dptkn..hohoh...lgpon skg ni cm msih dlm tmpoh recover..so, rest dulu..pnt bermain ngn perasaan...

hmmm...sme ke tjuk post ni ngn pe yg ak mngrut ni??

ALLAH SWT SANGAT MENCINTAIMU....

Bila ALLAH memberimu petunjuk,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu..

Bila ALLAH memberimu kesempitan, kesulitan dan musibah,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu dan ingin mendengar suara doa dari bibirmu...

Bila ALLAH memberimu sedikit,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

DIA akan memberimu banyak lagi di akhirat...

Bila ALLAH memberimu rasa redha,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

DIA telah memberimu nikmat terindah...

Bila ALLAH memberimu kesabaran,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

DIA memasukkanmu dalam golongan orang-orang yang beruntung...

Bila ALLAH memberimu keikhlasan,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

Maka ikhlaslah kepadaNYA...

Bila ALLAH memberimu cita-cita,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

DIA ingin kamu bersyukur...

Bila ALLAH memberimu kesedihan,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

DIA sedang menguji keimananmu...

Bila ALLAH memberimu harta,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

Maka janganlah bakhil kepada yang fakir...

Bila ALLAH memberimu kefakiran,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

DIA telah memberimu sesuatu yang lebih berharga dari harta...

Bila ALLAH memberimu lisan dan hati,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

Pergunakanlah dalam kebaikan...

Bila ALLAH memberimu nikmat Islam, solat, shiyam, qiyam, Al-Quran, tarbiyah,

Maka ketahuilah bahawa DIA mencintaimu,

Jangan kau abaikan dan kerjakanlah...

Bila kau sudah tahu bahawa ALLAH mencintaimu,

Maka mengapa kau diam saja..???

Berikanlah seluruh cintamu kepada-NYA...

Alhamdulillah~~

wake up very2 late this morning...huhuh....

naseb smpat siap...

post hr ni actually tok muhasabah diri terhadap post yg lepas...huhuh...the previous post i wrote during my angriness toward him...but now, it s gone..n what i want to say here....ALLAH knows everything...ALLAH plans is the bes for us...n as hambaNYA...we just pray for the best and never give up...just biar pe jua org nk ckp, org buat dekat kite....xperlu rse sedih or takut...coz ALLAH is always there for us...

Note to my self: Berserah..Tawakal...Redha pde ALLAH s.w.t.....

cuti...!!

da lame x memostingkn something dlm blog nieh...huhuhu...rse2 cm nk update selalu..tp mase x mngizinkn plak..huhuh..:)

da sebulan start kje balik pas cuti term selama 2 mnggu...skg ni plak, da smbng cuti lg smnggu blk..huhuh..bes gler...bru r ad ms nk update blog sket2...

bln januari 2011 ni, mcm2 prubahan berlaku dlm hidup aku...ak da ad ank buah...yg lahir tanggal 23 jnuari 2011...nme die nur iman balqis...huhu..pnggil iman jek...

bln januari ni jugak, kehidpan ak dr segi emosi, smkin stabill...alhamdulillah...syukur sgt sbb ak da smkin boleh menerima knyataan...xnk r sedih2 lagi...tp tbe2 hr nieh, ak mpi die plak...xtau r knp..mybe sbb msih igt kn die lg kot..but its okey...xeffect hidup aku pon....huhuh..past is past....nothing to do with my present or my future....

driving class ak plak..hmmmm..waa...cikgu tu soh ak amek test jpj 14 hb 2 nieh...alamal...xkonfiden lgsg r...cmne nieh...waa.....siyus mmg ak xykin lgsg...cikgu tu ckp, die kate ak boleh...adusss...stil pk2 lg nk amek ker x 14 hb ni...lg pon kne tggu smpi sklh bukak..nk kne amek cuti lg...hmmmm...

kje?huuu...work load yg bertmbh...time mngement ku yg sgt teruk....waaaa....kemlasan utuk wt report berleluasa....huuuuu...ntah la....xtau r...stress gak sbnrnyer ni...tp nk wt cmne kn....kje ttp kje...still kne wt...tmnbh2 lg, start bln 2 ni miss chu nk ak wt weekly operational report...adusss....tmbh lg kje ak,...kje2 yg sedia ad pon still agi xsiap2...dtg plak kje bru...xper2...pasti boleh..cube yg terbaek..lm2 tu biaser r kn../

hmmm...skg ni ngah tgk cite skrip 7707...smbil nk cr inspirasi nk wt kje..huuu...hmmm

okey la..nti smbng lg...

huhuh..babye..^^

Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine

Today, upon a bus,
I saw a girl with golden hair.
and wished I was as fair.
When suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch.
But as she passed, a smile.
Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 legs, the world is mine.

Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine (poem)I stopped to buy some candy.
The lad who sold it had such charm.
I talked with him, he seemed so glad.
If I were late, it'd do no harm.
And as I left, he said to me,
"I thank you, you've been so kind.
It's nice to talk with folks like you.
You see," he said, "I'm blind."
Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 eyes, the world is mine.

Later, while walking down the street,
I saw a child with eyes of blue.
He stood and watched the others play.
He did not know what to do.
I stopped a moment and then I said,
"Why don't you join the others, dear?"
He looked ahead without a word;
and then I knew, he wouldn't hear.
Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 ears, the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I'd go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine.
I've been blessed indeed, the world is mine.

credit to:Inspirational Stories, Motivational Stories for Students, Short Encouraging and Uplifting Stories

kEnaNgAn tErInDaH.......

hmmmm....wat a wonderful day..hohooho... after mnjilidkn thesis..hr2 yg di lalui smkin tenang..alhamdullilah atas nikmat yg di berikan oleh ALLAH s.w.t.... 4 thun yg di lalui bukan sthin yg mudah untuk di tempuhi...byk kngan terindah yg tercipta...sesuatu yg akan tersemat smpi bila2.. 6 days left for us to be a student or peljar....n after this..xtau bile kite akn berjumpe lg...wktu yg pling dekt my be ms nad kawen or ms konvo nti..and im going to miss2 u so much guys..thanks for being such a great2 frens n coursemates.... terlalu bnyk yg kite lalui bersame..dr 22 org dlm kls n now become 31....n we have chnge a lot... for those with me from the first year of our clas, form we 19th, n now we are 23rd..can u imagine how long we ar together...huhuh..da mkin berusian kn...n we have spent our time togther..we have go through this 4 years dgn tabah..congrats for ourself.... for the lectures..especially mr kamal yg mule2 ajar kite..wat a fun clas we have right?? n i m gonna miss all the clas with mr kamal...3 semester with him.... the hardest moment that i cant forget is on semester 6...what a toughest semester on of course this final sem... this final sem teach me to be independent n work hard from the previous sem..the practical, the thesis..how tough it is...huhuhu...n what a buziest semester...beulang alik ke hkl selame 3 bulan...then after the prktikal..berulang alik lg ke hkl to complete my research....n berkurung di rumah cz membuat n myiapkn thesis..also berulang alik ke puncak alam to see my supervisor.... n all the hard work is paid off during the research presentation...alhamdullilah... thank to ALLAH s.w.t..my parents n fren for their doa..n my supervisor for his help n guindance eventhough i am not a good n intelligent student, but he willing to teach n guide me for each steps in my research process...thanks sir... n dedicated to my fren...thank u sooooo much for being with me..teach me n always support me to go through with all of this..n congratz to all my classmate cz we have finish ou research presentation....n i really2 hope that we can graduate together...inyaALLAH...... n i hope this 11/5..we can have another memorable day together..hope all my classmate can involve in this activity plan by han n dila....n we can enjoy it... las but not least....i just want to say...this 4 years was kenangan terindah in my life........:p

waiting for the last....

hmm..at 5.34 am...im still not sleeping yet....da lame xmengupdte kn blog nieh...buzy sejak blk ke puncak alam..busy menyiapkn segale tugas berkaitan dgn research..hmm..tgl lg 2 hr untuk prepare for the presenatation..pg ni around 8.30 am nk turun ke bwh tok jmper my supervisor..hope dpt jmper untuk tunjuk kt die my latest slide presentation.....hopefully its ok.....
i hope i can do my best this thursday..the first presentar on the las day....at 8.30 am..how nervous i am now...
hr2 yg dilalui di puncak alam sgt mnyereonokkn...i gonna mis dis moment...wlpon stress dgn research, but at least i have people that are really help n support me....thanks guys..im gonna miss u guys..sooooo mmmuuccchhhh!!!!!!!
dlm beberapa hr lg...kite sume akn mnghabiskn tmpoh 4 thun bersama...bnyk kngn yg tersemat..rupe2nyer..xlme pon 4 thun tu kn.....hmmmm...hope kite sume dpt grad sme2 n tmbh lg kngn mnis antare kite.....
waaa...sekejap nyr ms berlalu.........segale penat lelah kite sume akn berakhir....i really hope n pray to ALLAH S.W.T that kite sume akn berjaye mngharungi presentation research ni dgn tenng n tabah.......we hve to be strong kawan2........we have too!!!!!
lat but not least.........all the best for ussss...may ALLAH S.W.T bless us......NURAZRINA BINTI RHAMAN....KHAIRUL ELLYANEE BINTI KAMZAH...HANIZAH BINTI MOHD ALI PIAH...NORSYAFIQAH BINTI SAMSURI...WAN NUR HAMIZAH BINTI WAN ABDUL RAHMAN..SITI NADIAH BINTI AWANG N NURUL SHERIENA BINTI MUSA.........MAY ALLAH S.W.T BLESS ALL OF US FOR THIS RESEARCH PRESENTATION......HOPE WE CAN TRY OUR BEST.....GUD LUCK N ALL D BEST FRENS!!!!